Dulu...Sekarang...

Tiba-tiba tergerak hati nak baca blog my Mom and my sister. Sedih sangat after read their entry.

Dulu...Mak bangun awal pagi untuk sediakan makanan untuk sahur. Bangun dari tidur, basuh muka, terus makan.

Sekarang...Kena bangun awal pagi uruskan makanan untuk sahur SENDIRI. Kalau malas, minum air je.

Dulu...selalu dengar Abah mengaji Al-Quran lepas sahur sementara tunggu masuk waktu Subuh.

Sekarang...sunyi je. Bising pun sebab dengar jiran sebelah ketawa, tak pun main gitar. Apedaa..Lepas solat, sambung tidur.

Dulu...selalu solat jemaah waktu Subuh sama-sama dekat ruang tamu. Kalau tak, kadang-kadang ikut Abah pergi solat dekat masjid dengan Najiha.-Things during Ramadhan that I MISSED the most.

Sekarang...solat sorang-sorang je.

Dulu...Mak lah selalu kelam-kabut balik dari kerja sebab nak masak untuk berbuka. Sometimes I helped a bit with the dishes. Tolong banyak pun lepas kena marah dengan mak.huhu..I was so bad that time.

Sekarang...beli jela makanan. Selalunya memang tak sedap. Tapi diri ni jenis tak kisah sangat so makan jela.

Dulu...Makan waktu berbuka dengan keluarga.

Sekarang...Makan waktu berbuka dengan housemates. The feeling was sooooo much different.

Dulu...Makan atas meja. We have our own place to sit.

Sekarang...Makan bersila. Ada meja pun kecik je untuk letak makanan. Nasib baik diri ni jenis tak kisah.

Dulu...Rajin juga pergi solat Terawih dengan keluarga.

Sekarang...Sangat malas sebab tak ada geng. Perlu geng ke??huhu. Maybe sebab dah biasa pergi ada teman.

Dulu...Tak perlu fikir macam mana nak balik raya.

Sekarang...Kena plan awal-awal. Kadang-kadang sebulan awal dah plan.

I miss my family. Even I just went home last week but it's not the same. Najiha wasn't there. So, the family was not complete. I miss the time during break fast. Ramadhan is the only time that when we can eat together, like mom said. Masa tu la nak bergurau dan borak macam-macam. I always wonder what my family ate during break fast and sahur. I wanted to call but I don't wanna feel envy because they got to eat something good and I don't. I refuse to call because I don't wanna miss my family which I already do. So, tak nak tambah tahap kerinduan. I hate to call because I don't want my mom to feel sad. It will make me sad. The feeling that I don't like. Even my mom won't tell me, but I know that she's sad, missing me, Abang Long, and Najiha. I hate to know that there's only my mom and Aiman at home when my dad went outstation. I miss my sis. Knowing that she's having a little difficulties being away with the family make me can't wait to go back for this Eid. I hope you be strong, sis. This is the time for you to learn to live on your own as a preparation because you have to one day.

Kerinduan Melampau,

Miz Vamp