Nice To Be A Kid

Assalamualaikum





It's nice to be a kid...

No matter how bad the world is,
You ignore it and can still play around.

No matter how many problems appear,
You can still live without any worries.

No matter what mess you've done,
There's always somebody who will clean it up.

No matter what harm in front of you,
People will try to protect you.

No matter how bad you behave,
People will still forgive and accept you.

No matter what you've done,
People will still love you.

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Somebody Without Words

Semoga berbahagia di sana, MD

a pa do keu dael bwa yo,
nae mam mo reun cheok du nu neul ga ma do
wue ga seu meun keu dae man
babo cheo reom wo na jyo
bogo sip dan maldo
hal su eopseo seo
daga seol su eop neun na inde
nun muri nal geot ga ta seo
babo ga ta seo

keul dael bo nae jyo
hon jat mal cheo reom
sarang handa mal hae yo



nota hari ini: Without words it came, without words it's leaving, Like a fever I've had, Maybe all I have to do is hurt for a while, Because....the only thing that remains are scars.

credit to:
Cha Soo Kyung - Somebody(Partner OST)
Without Words(You're Beautiful OST)

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Hello, is it me...

I was listening to the radio. And tonight, after so many, many, many nights, 'It's all coming back to me now'. This song touched my heart. Sang by Lionel Richie. But I like Glee version more than the original..

I've been alone with you

Inside my mind

And in my dreams I've kissed your lips

A thousand times

I sometimes see you

Pass outside my door

Hello!

Is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes

I can see it in your smile

You're all I've ever wanted

And my arms are open wide

'cause you know just what to say

And you know just what to do

And I want to tell you so much

I love you

I long to see the sunlight in your hair

And tell you time and time again

How much I care

Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow

Hello!

I've just got to let you know

'cause I wonder where you are

And I wonder what you do

Are you somewhere feeling lonely?

Or is someone loving you?

Tell me how to win your heart

For I haven't got a clue

But let me start by saying I love you

Hello!

Is it me you're looking for?

'cause I wonder where you are

And I wonder what you do

Are you somewhere feeling lonely?

Or is someone loving you?

Tell me how to win your heart

For I haven't got a clue

But let me start by saying I love you

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GONE

I've been sitting here, can't get you off my mind

I'm trying my best to be a girl and be strong

But the truth remains that you're gone

So I'll just hang around and find some things to do

To take my mind off missing you

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Kenangan kembali

Kenangan datang kembali,

Seperti dulu, ia datang tanpa diduga,

Ia datang tanpa dipinta.

Kenangan,

Kau mengusik jiwa yang cuba berdiri selama ini.

Kau menabur pahit yang sama,

Tapi kau mencarik duka yang baru.

Kenangan,

Mengapa tiba-tiba?

Mengapa setelah sekian lama?

Mengapa setelah hampir 2 tahun?

Mengapa memberi lara?

Kenangan,

Buat aku sedih,

Buat aku rindu,

Buat aku geram,

Buat aku....segala rasa bercampur.

Kenangan buat saya jiwa kacau. Terima kasih. Sorry for the 'F' word.huhu

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It's All Coming Back

The wound started to bleed, again.

The hole in my chest become visible,

It's burning and caused the pain to come out.

I'd tried to ease the pain,

I'd tried to fill my thoughts with something else,

I'd tried to regain my strength with laughter.

I don't wanna fake myself,

I don't wanna make it worst,

I don't wanna feel the emptiness.

Everything around me reminded me of that time,

Every seconds that passed by leave a new scars,

Every breathe I take is excruciating to me,

Every thoughts I had is about him.

I wanted to be strong,

I wanted to take EVERYTHING out,

I wanted to fill my promise - to move on,

I wanted to forget what cause me so much pain.

Thank you, Malacca. You bring back the past.

MD, I had gave you my best.

Now, I'm at my WORST

since you had the best of me...

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Miss and Hate

I miss talking on the phone every night before sleep

I miss texting while I'm bored

I miss telling about my daily life

I miss arguing when there's nothing to do

I miss missing when being apart

I miss sharing everything in life

I miss laughing even for a stupid jokes

I miss being "you're mine"

I miss remembering special dates

I miss being two than one

I miss switching songs

I miss feeling full than empty

I miss everything even there's none anymore....

I hate when it:

Feels like I'm missing someone but I don't know who

Feels like I need something but I don't know what

Feels like going somewhere but I don't know where

Feels like I'm sick when I'm all fine

Feels like it's all messed up even though it's fine

Feels like I'm happy but I'm not

Feels like I have it when I don't

Missing,

Miz Vamp

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Impossible

Sekarang aku dekat teratak usang aku, baru lepas siapkan assignment. Aku kena sedia tajuk untuk presentation minggu depan. Masa kelas aku bagi tajuk lain, sampai aku argue dengan pensyarah, tapi sekarang aku sediakan tajuk lain pulak yang baru muncul dekat fikiran aku. Hurmmm.. Doakan tajuk baru aku ni diterima ea?huhu. Lately aku kerap buat entry dalam bahasa ibunda kan? Saja tukar angin...hehe. Ok, aku usha blog BFF aku, GI and ternampak post dia lagu Impossible by Shontelle. Ni post tergendala aku yang dah terperuk lama. Baik aku keluarkan sebelum jadi pekasam..haha

I remember years ago, someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not

My illusion, my mistake

I was careless, I forgot, I did

And now when all is done there is nothing to say

You have gone and so effortlessly

You have won you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard

Falling for betrayal is worst

Broken trust and broken hearts

I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there

Building faith on love and words

Empty promises will wear

I know, I know

And now when all is gone

There is nothing to say

And if you're done with embarrassing me

On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible!

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the roof tops

Write it on the sky line

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped would be

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago

Someone told me I should take

Caution when it comes to love

I did..

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Cinta aku.

Dah setahun lebih aku hidup tanpa lelaki yang bukan keluarga atau kawan. Dia bagi impak besar dalam sejarah hidup aku. Disebabkan dia, aku merasai keindahan percintaan. Disebabkan dia, aku merasai kepahitan perpisahan. Disebabkan dia juga, aku hilang rasa percaya pada kaum Adam. Dia ajar aku ilmu yang aku tak tahu. Dia ajar aku supaya lebih matang. Dia bahagiakan aku dengan caranya. Dia buat aku senyum bila aku betulkan loghat dia. (^^) Dia cakap, "Tak baik mengeluh, macam salahkan takdir". Kata-kata dia yang paling aku suka, bila dia mengalah dengan aku, bila dia ikut pilihan aku, dia akan cakap, "Ikutlah mane-mane pon". Satu je yang aku selalu geram dengan dia, dia tak pandai pujuk aku. Sampai sekarang kot kalau kitaorang still together. =) Hari tu, aku hampir-hampir tertinggal handphone aku dekat rumah sedara aku. Yela, orang tak ada pakwe, tak selalu SMS, tak selalu la handphone dekat tangan. kan? Dulu, handphone laaa nyawa aku.

Aku teringin nak bergayut lame-lame. Dengan siapa tak jadi masalah. Tapi, aku selalu fikir, dulu, apa yang aku borak dengan dia sampai 2, 3 jam? Tak cukup SMS dan call siang hari, tengah malam wajib bergayut. Kecuali masing-masing ada hal. Sekarang, jangankan nak bergayut, SMS sekejap pun aku kadang-kadang dah tak tahu nak cakap pasal ape..hurmm

Ish. Kenapa aku cakap pasal dia ni??! Aku bukan tak cuba lupakan...Tapi, susah. Ade je benda yang akan ingatkan aku pada dia walau sekecil kuman. Aku tak lupa, tapi aku abaikan je. Yela, ingat lebih-lebih pun dapat apa, kan?? Aku abaikan dan cuba bina hidup baru. Hasilnya, hidup tanpa lelaki lebih menyenangkan. Tak serabut otak.hahaha. *yeke?*

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He has the power to melt my heart with his words.

He's the only guy that has the ability to turn my life upside down.

He's the reason I couldn't love other guy until now.

He's the one that teach me, "When a man say forever, it means never".

Lelaki yang paling banyak berjanji tak boleh dipercayai - paling banyak janji bermaksud paling sikit untuk tunaikan.

"Cinta itu permulaan sebuah derita, dibayar dengan air mata dan dihutang dengan janji-janji yang sekalipun belum tentu mendatangkan kebahagiaan sebuah percintaan." Is it true?

Terkenang dan emosional melampau,

Miz Vamp

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Dulu...Sekarang...

Tiba-tiba tergerak hati nak baca blog my Mom and my sister. Sedih sangat after read their entry.

Dulu...Mak bangun awal pagi untuk sediakan makanan untuk sahur. Bangun dari tidur, basuh muka, terus makan.

Sekarang...Kena bangun awal pagi uruskan makanan untuk sahur SENDIRI. Kalau malas, minum air je.

Dulu...selalu dengar Abah mengaji Al-Quran lepas sahur sementara tunggu masuk waktu Subuh.

Sekarang...sunyi je. Bising pun sebab dengar jiran sebelah ketawa, tak pun main gitar. Apedaa..Lepas solat, sambung tidur.

Dulu...selalu solat jemaah waktu Subuh sama-sama dekat ruang tamu. Kalau tak, kadang-kadang ikut Abah pergi solat dekat masjid dengan Najiha.-Things during Ramadhan that I MISSED the most.

Sekarang...solat sorang-sorang je.

Dulu...Mak lah selalu kelam-kabut balik dari kerja sebab nak masak untuk berbuka. Sometimes I helped a bit with the dishes. Tolong banyak pun lepas kena marah dengan mak.huhu..I was so bad that time.

Sekarang...beli jela makanan. Selalunya memang tak sedap. Tapi diri ni jenis tak kisah sangat so makan jela.

Dulu...Makan waktu berbuka dengan keluarga.

Sekarang...Makan waktu berbuka dengan housemates. The feeling was sooooo much different.

Dulu...Makan atas meja. We have our own place to sit.

Sekarang...Makan bersila. Ada meja pun kecik je untuk letak makanan. Nasib baik diri ni jenis tak kisah.

Dulu...Rajin juga pergi solat Terawih dengan keluarga.

Sekarang...Sangat malas sebab tak ada geng. Perlu geng ke??huhu. Maybe sebab dah biasa pergi ada teman.

Dulu...Tak perlu fikir macam mana nak balik raya.

Sekarang...Kena plan awal-awal. Kadang-kadang sebulan awal dah plan.

I miss my family. Even I just went home last week but it's not the same. Najiha wasn't there. So, the family was not complete. I miss the time during break fast. Ramadhan is the only time that when we can eat together, like mom said. Masa tu la nak bergurau dan borak macam-macam. I always wonder what my family ate during break fast and sahur. I wanted to call but I don't wanna feel envy because they got to eat something good and I don't. I refuse to call because I don't wanna miss my family which I already do. So, tak nak tambah tahap kerinduan. I hate to call because I don't want my mom to feel sad. It will make me sad. The feeling that I don't like. Even my mom won't tell me, but I know that she's sad, missing me, Abang Long, and Najiha. I hate to know that there's only my mom and Aiman at home when my dad went outstation. I miss my sis. Knowing that she's having a little difficulties being away with the family make me can't wait to go back for this Eid. I hope you be strong, sis. This is the time for you to learn to live on your own as a preparation because you have to one day.

Kerinduan Melampau,

Miz Vamp

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GooDbYe

I can honestly say

You've been on my mind

Since I woke up today, up today

I look at your photograph all the time

These memories come back to life

And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed

I still feel it on my lips

The time that you danced with me

With no music playing

I remember the simple things

I remember 'till I cry

But the one thing I wish I'd forget

The memory I wanna forget

Is goodbye

I woke up this morning

And played our song

And through my tears I sang along

I picked up the phone and then

Put it down

Cause I know I'm wasting my time

And I don't mind

I remember when we kissed

I still feel it on my lips

The time that you danced with me

With no music playing

I remember the simple things

I remember 'till I cried

But the one thing I wish I'd forget

The memory I wanna forget

Suddenly my cell phone's blowing up

With your ring tone

I hesitate but answer it anyway

You sound so alone

And I'm surprised to hear you say

You remember when we kissed

You still feel it on your lips

The time that you danced with me

With no music playing

You remember the simple things

We talked 'till we cried

You said that your biggest regret

The one thing you wish I'd forget

Is saying goodbye

Saying goodbye

Mmh, Goodbye

By Miley Cyrus

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sAyaNg aTau ciNtA??

" Cinta bersifat sementara kerana selalunya datang dari nafsu..

Dari mata turun ke hati.

Cinta sangat rapuh maka perlu dijaga dengan penuh berhati-hati supaya tidak berkecai.

Kasih sayang lahir dari hati dan dari situ kita mencari keistimewaan seseorang untuk mengukuhkan sebab mengapa kita perlu menyayanginya.

Kasih sayang ada ketahanan terhadap rintangan dan cabaran dan sifatnya berkekalan jika diizinkan Allah.. "

Taken from one of the novel that I had read but I couldn't remember the title.

I used to give this to mr LO. And it does prove between "sayang" and "cinta".

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Salam Untuk Kekasih

Di sebalik kalbu
Yang semakin layu
Terbenam rasa rindu
Terkunci suara hati
Tiada siapa tahu

Dimanakah kasih
Tak seperti dulu
Kata kau sayangkan ku
Benarkah itu

Walau kehadiranku hanyalah sementara
Bukan salahmu sayang kira kau jatuh cinta
Akan ku pergi jauh takkan kembali
Salam maaf permisi
Ku undur diri

Kini ku bersara
Dengan langkah baru
Menyisi luka ini
Kekasih... sekeras aku
Terhiris kerna kamu

Ku tinggalkan cinta
Kisah yang berlalu
Kisah kenangan kita
Hanya kau tahu

Walau kehadiranmu bagaikan menghiasi
Bukan caraku sayang harap engkau mengerti
Pemergianku ini tak ku relai
Salam maaf permisi
Ku undur diri

By--Nadia.

I heard this song from my mom's phone.

I used to love this song.

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Ku Lepaskan Kau Pergi

Desakan air bisa merubah

Dan segunung pasir akan menjadi lembah

Tiada yang mustahil keteguhan cinta

Tumbang kerna desakan

Seribu dugaan

Begitu terjadi diantara kita

Perjalanan yang menguji tak terlawan rasa

lalu kita tewas... diarus yang ganas

Sungguh berat untuk menghadapi semua ini

Tak terdaya lagi untuk mengharungi

melepaskan kau pergi itu yang terjadi

Mungkin suratan kita

hanya disini cuma

Perpisahan mungkin akan membawa hikmah

Kau terimalah segalanya dengan redha

pengalaman kita abadikan dalam jiwa...

By--Spring.

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DIA peneman Aku,Kamu,Semua

Menyusuri malam ku sendirian,

Mata tiada layu walau kegelapan,

Fikiran ku terbang ke awangan,

Mengintai segala kenangan.

Sayangku telah berterbangan,

Dan ku ditinggalkan,

Pasrah ku dalam kejatuhan,

Bangkit ku cuba menahan.

Ku usir bayangan,

Ku cuba gapai harapan,

Meski dikelilingi teman,

Kadang terasa jua keseorangan.

Tabahlah jiwa kesayangan,

Takdir ku redhakan,

Cubalah mara kehadapan,

Bersama DIA sentiasa meneman.

Yeah, I'm a little bit emotional tonight.LOL.

I don't usually express it like this, but

now...Okay, blame the song that I was

listening to right now..hahaha

DIA is our God, Allah S.W.T.

Emotional,

Miz Vamp

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Heartless and Senseless Me

I don't know why lately I've been very heartless to him. Those emotion that I actually didn't meant to express, I expressed it. I ended up hurting him by saying something terrible. It's not really terrible but it kinda harsh because I know I've never acted like that before. And I know it hurt him. I felt guilty but I still doing it everytime I chat with him. Seriously, I don't know what's going on with me. I keep being cold and hard-hearted with him. Not just to him, but to a few people. Does hormones got anything to do with it? hurmm Anyway, sometimes.. No. Most of the time, I felt like I wanted to "belasah" someone. Anyone, like this.Maybe I'm feeling like this because I've had enough, I'm sick and tired with all this. I'm tired of waiting and crying. I'm sick of getting hurt by people that I trusted the most not to hurt me. And I had enough with people that I loved but never love me the way they told me.

Love is pure. Love is supposed to be beautiful, not painful. It makes you wanna live all day till your last breathe, not end your life. What good is love when it keeps on hurting you, right??And people always said that if you love that person, you've gotta let them go. So, that's what I'm planning to do right now. Though it hurt, I got to be strong, stand up, and live every moment of my life that Allah had gave me. I don't wanna waste any second of it.

Love to human is not always be forever, but love to Allah, that is absolutely forever.

p/s:

I'm am truly, very sorry for the way I acted.

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MixEd buT nOt mAtcH

My eyes hurt, for crying sooo much. My head hurt, for thinking about you sooo much. And my heart hurt, for loving you soo much. Today, just now...I let him go. This time for real. I hope. Mr. LO, I wish you know the truth inside me. I felt like I want to rip my heart out so you can feel what exactly I felt and see how bad you broke it. I don't wanna say what I said just now. I didn't mean it. It hard, it hurt, and it felt so bad to press the 'send' button. I can't hold it. The 'clear water drops' keep falling down. I don't have the strength to go through my each day without you. The feelings all mixed up..It keeps burning and churning inside me..

Remember you, is hurting.

Love you, is heart breaking.

Want you, is losing.

Forget, only make me remember more.

Hate, only make me love more.

Let go, only make me want you more.

I let you go.

If that's what you think

the best way...

Don't know what to do,

Miz Vamp

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nO diNneR

I’m on a “holiday” now..hahaha. Not a real holiday, just resting my mind before my next paper. In two days, I had done fighting for 3 papers. And there’re 3 more to go. I can’t wait to finish it. What I had for my dinner today? Hahaha. Don’t be surprise. I only ate this.
Very the malas to go down to the dining. Because at first I wasn’t really hungry so, I thought by eating those junk food is enough. But now, "grork~~grork~~". Urghhh what's that?? Urmm that's the sound of my stomach, (*_*)" “merayu and menyanyi-nyanyi” so that I fill it with something. Something healthier maybe. But unfortunately, I have nothing in my room except ‘Super Ring lazat Super Ring riang...' and some sugar cracker. To be honest, I wasn’t really in the mood to eat since I got mr. LO’s e-mail. huhu. Ok, don’t wanna think about that. Thanks to that, I got a headache just by thinking about him.. Headache and heart ache.

Now, I was thinking about how I wanna go back. First plan was my parents will come here. But then, my dad called and told me that he had to go outstation on the day that he was supposed to come and pick me up. It’s ok, dad. You can go. And mom, you don’t have to worry. I'll settled it myself. Hurm.. I was planning to ask my friend to lend me his car so that I can use it to take my stuff to my “rumah sewa”. Then I will take a bus to go home..hurmm...Hope it all do well.

“Wahai perut, bersabar lah kamu....”

starving,

Miz Vamp

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SomEbOdY's mE

You, do you remember me?

Like I remember you?

Do you spend your life

Going back in your mind to that time?

'Cause I, I walk the streets alone

I hate bein' on my own

And everyone can see that I really fell

And I'm going through hell

Thinking about you with somebody else

[Chorus:]

Somebody wants you

Somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath

without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that one day you will see

That Somebody's Me [2x]

How, how could we go wrong?

It was so good and now it's gone

And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross

And what we had isn't lost

Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

[Chorus:]

Ohh ya

You'll always be in my life

Even if I'm not in your life

Because you're in my memory

You, when you remember me

And before you set me free

Oh listen please

[Chorus:]

That Somebody's Me

By Enrique Iglesias

Bo go ship da mr. LO

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i'M noT sTroNg

Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I don't have. Right after I chat with MR. LO, I get into the toilet and I

I can't help it... The pain come again.. I tried to hold the tears from coming out but it hurt me so. I felt like my chest was going to explode..


If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you, but I did, I do and I will. My heart longs for you, my soul dies for you, my eyes cry for you, my empty arms reach out for you. Days continue to pass, stars continue to shine. Why do I have tears in my eyes today when he was NEVER mine?

For me, moving on is simple, but what you leave behind that makes it so difficult. I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had. But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me, and I guess that's what hurts the most. Every few nights or so you came into my dreams, I just can't get rid of you like you got rid of me. There’s a time I had a dream and it was about you ... I smiled and recalled the memories we had ... then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ... you know why? Because in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye ...

I know a million words would not bring you back, I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears, I know because I've cried. My heart was taken by you, broken by you and now is in pieces because of you. You said you didn't want to see me get hurt, does that mean you closed your eyes when I cried? Ask me how many times my heart has been broken and I will tell you to look in the sky and count the stars.

Loving you was easy, losing you was hard. Loving you is still easy, but knowing you are no longer mine, is the hardest of it all. Why is it easy to fall in love and yet so hard to be loved back? Why should I feel such if destiny permits me not? Why do I have to fall if it's you I can’t have? Why is there a "you" in "me" but never a "me" in "you"?


I wish I can do you like this....I really wish I can......because I really want to.

But I can't... You not a toy... You not small.... And what's more important, you are not here with me.. (so, you can thank God because you are not here).

Sometimes it's better to be alone.
No one can hurt you that way.

Sad and gloomy,
Miz Vamp

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I gotta go my own way

GABRIELLA: I gotta say what's on my mind,
Something bout us doesn't seem right these days,
Life keeps getting in the way,
Whenever we tried somehow the plan is always rearranged,
It's so hard to say but,
But I've got to do what's best for me
You'll be okay,

CHORUS
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now I gotta go my own way..

Don't want to leave it all behind,
But I get my hopes up,
And I watch them fall everytime,
Another color turns to gray,
And it's just too hard to watch it all,
Slowly fade away,
I'm leaving today,
Cause i've gotta do what's best for me,
You'll be okay,

CHORUS
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here i hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now I gotta go my own way,

TROY: what about us, what about everything we've been through?

GABRIELLA: what about trust?

TROY: you know i never wanna to hurt you

GABRIELLA: and what about me?

TROY: what am i supposed to do?

GABRIELLA: i gotta leave but I'll miss you
So, i've got to move on and be who iam

TROY: why you have to go?

I just don't belong here i hope you understand

TROY: i'll try to understand

GABRIELLA: we might find our place in this world someday but at least for now i gotta go my own way,
( my own way )

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